I didnt feel well, my head was dizzy, all the memories of the past just came rushing back to me.
Everyone of them stabbing me like a knife.
The sense of guilt was overwhelming.
Unaware, tears were already flowing a straight stream down.
My heart was in pain.
Thousands of cuts were being made.
Boths scars old and new were reopening, leaving the wound exposed, causing great pain at the same time.
I was able to hear my heartbeat clearly.
Beating at an unsteady speed.
Where are You?
Where are You when i needed You?
Why?
Where are all of you?
Why do i feel the loneliness that i felt when i was betrayed by the people whom i thought were my best friends?
Why?
Why do i feel the pain that i had when my family criticized me?
Why do i feel the immense hate that i had years ago towards thaose liars?
Why do i remember clearly the words that cut my heart so deep?
Why do i have to go through them again?
Why are they coming back?
The whole night i was having flashbacks, memories that have been long buried deep within me have been surfacing.
Even when i woke up i would still be seeing them.
I would be sweating heavily when i wake.
Why is this happening?
Im losing my trust towards everything.
My whole world suddenly seemed so empty and dark, nothing existed, nothing but emptiness.
My heart hurts as if an arrow was shot through it.
Where are my friends when i need them?
Where are You?
I need You....